Two more days

How long can two days take after all? How long can the weekend after that last? I am more scared of the weekend than I am of the Friday beta. A long weekend of crying seems like no fun at all. But it might be good news you say . . . oh, right, that is also possible.

In all fairness it is possible. But I don’t feel pregnant. Wouldn’t I feel something if an event so momentous was taking place inside my own body? Wouldn’t I just know??

I hate not knowing, but I hate knowing that the answer is NO even more. Do I even need a beta? Can’t I just keep injecting PIO forever, keeping AF at bay and pretend I am pg? After all I am now officially fat enough* to pass for pregnant. Will people notice if I don’t give birth in nine months? Hmmmm . . . I guess I couldn’t fool them forever.

Oh well. It was just an idea.

*I had an irrational flip out session** this afternoon because my Mom bought me an unsolicited pie. A freaking pie. I don’t need a pie. I just baked low fat zucchini loaf with lots of yummy cinnamon and vitamins and goodness (which she knew) and what does she do? Buys me a pie. A WHOLE pie. Food = Love in her mind, so I know it wasn’t meant in a bad way, but I am so sick of food being central to my relationship with her. Can’t she talk to me about stuff I care about. Like my life?

**For the record, I only flipped out silently. Then I did the cowardly thing and asked my Dad to somehow keep my Mom from buying me food. I am a grown woman and I DO grocery shop and cook. My husband*** in NOT starving.

***Last time I left my husband alone for a week to go to a pottery workshop, I cooked a week’s worth of meals for him to heat up and still my Mom showed up to feed him while I was gone (with pie no less)!

OK, enough about my family’s dysfunction.

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25 Responses to “Two more days”

  1. One Mother's Journey Says:

    I wish my mom brought me pie.

  2. EJW Says:

    “But I don’t feel pregnant. Wouldn’t I feel something if an event so momentous was taking place inside my own body? Wouldn’t I just know??”

    If I weren’t growing enormous boobs and a fat belly, I would have no idea I were pregnant. I literally didn’t feel a thing different until 8 weeks when my (very very mild) nausea set in, and that only lasted 2 weeks.

    Symptoms/lack of symptoms are NOT a clue. They’re just a mind game. Hang in there, and good luck!

  3. Hopeful Mother Says:

    I am wishing you all the best for Friday and that these 2 days fly by. Waiting just stinks.

    Oh, BTW, just post the pie up here on your blog. We’ll eat it.

  4. Bea Says:

    I hate the last two days. I think I could just about wait through the whole rest of the time, as long as you didn’t make me do the last two days. In fact, if you came up to me and said, “What will it be, Bea? A 2ww minus the last two days, or the last two days minus the 2ww?” I’d have to go for the first, because the last two days just suck so much they’re worse than all the others put together.

    But good luck.

    Bea

  5. Beagle Says:

    I wish I could post pie on my blog.

    As it turned out, Dad really wanted it but Mom said it was for me and C. so I quickly said Dad was welcome to it. I hope I didn’t hurt my Mom’s feelings, but a girl has to watch her waistline.

    Now if I am pg in two days I will gladly eat crow (or pie), but until I have an excuse for this belly pudge, no pie for me!

  6. Starfish Says:

    Hang in there, my fingers are crossed for you. I hope you get to eat pie in celebration very soon!

    BTW are you italian?? That is so my grandmother.

  7. Mary Ellen and Steve Says:

    I hope that the next couple of days fly by for you. Hugs.

  8. Donna Says:

    EJW obviously is speaking from experience whereas I am only speaking from someone who did way too much research she ended up not needing…but I totally agree. What is going on right now is microscopic, as momentous as it is. Wouldn’t it be wonderful if we could post pie??

  9. sube Says:

    Ew, pie, yeck. I’ve never liked the stuff. I know, I’m a freak.

    I’ll be thinking of you on Friday.

  10. Shop Girl Says:

    Hang in there…it’ll come quick! I’m in the same boat; the time is near for me to test, but I haven’t yet because I don’t want to get a BFN and be let down yet again. Although this is the first true cycle that I might actually be PG (with my husband’s azoospermia), I think, “hey, it could happen the first time”, then I think “what would make you think it would happen that quick?!”. Ugh.

  11. the waiting line Says:

    I know it’s tough, hang in there!

    and, please keep us posted on the family dysfunction. how else would I know that I am not alone? 🙂

  12. Lindy Says:

    Arrrrghghghgr! The last two days! It’s just insanity!!!

    Good on you for passing on the pie even when you’re under such stress.

    Hoping and hoping and hoping and hoping for you.

  13. Ellen K. Says:

    I’m wishing you much luck tomorrow.

    I’d like some of that pie, too. Even though I don’t need it thanks to the Clomid pooch.

  14. Meg Says:

    Hang in there, Beagle. Only a couple of days to go…

    I would have eaten the pie. I have surrendered to the waistline.

  15. Thalia Says:

    I’m afraid I’m a bit of a culprit on the food=love thing. I bake to nuture ppl. Makes me and my husband fatter than we should be. Hmm, must think about that.

    Hoping very hard for you.

  16. SmarshyBoy Says:

    My wife has been pregnant twice (one miscarriage, one live birth). Both times she felt NO symptoms and was sure she was not pregnant. So you never know.

    I’m keep my fingers crossed for you.

  17. Alli Says:

    LOL over Kellie’s comment.

    Wow, I am with you on this post. I couldn’t have said it better myself.

  18. serenity Says:

    Do we have the same mother?*

    The last few days of the 2ww are the freaking WORST.

    [HUG]

    *Only my mother brings me brownies.

  19. GLouise Says:

    Maybe your mom can start a pie business 🙂 That is really funny! She must think you are starving, or that is her only way to “reach out.”

  20. pixi Says:

    Well, I hope you have a good weekend, if you know what I mean!

  21. MoMo Says:

    Good luck today…I will be thinking of you.

  22. Just another Jenny Says:

    Two days can last forever. I hope that there are no tears for this weekend and that you finally get the good news you deserve.
    As for the pie, it is damn frustrating when people you love don’t respect your efforts towards your health. Hopefully your hubbie likes pie.

  23. Kristi Says:

    Thinking about you today. Good luck!

  24. N Says:

    Oh oh oh, it’s time today, and I haven’t even stopped by to wish you luck! Hope you are getting a high beta today! I’m keeping it so crossed for you!

    Hugs!

    Nina

  25. Angie Says:

    OH Beagle… I completely understand!

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